what's going on in my head right now.

Hi everyone.....


This is not the blog post I was wanting to write and put up today, I was wanting to do this weeks music blog. But I really don't feel like writing that one today.

And I have found myself writing the instead, I have been feeling really anxious a lot lately.
I'm fine one moment then the next I'm not. I have not been to the doctors yet to see how bad my anxiety really is but do plan to go really soon. 


I have really been hiding how I really am feeling for over a year now and finally to day I opened up to my mum. next step going to the doctors which I feel is going to be really hard and scary for me.
I hate feeling judged by people, like today the woman give me one hell of a horrible look I was just walking a long the street minding my on business. I really don't get why people find the need to look down their nose at anyone else. As for me no one is better than anyone.  There is more reason way I feel anxious a lot of the time but I'm only searching this one for now.

I think having my blog and writing blog post are helping in away, takes my mind off of things. This is only a little update post for now when I feel up to write this weeks music post I will, but really I'm running out of time for the week.

 

 

Well thank you for reading this blog post let me know if you have on twitter or in the comments.

I don't ever what anyone else to feel like they can't talk about how they are feeling so I'm always here if anyone need a chat.

 

 

Love amanda.

xxx